Sometimes I wonder about when I was truly happy... like really a happy person with not a care in the world and I can honestly not think of a chunk of time in my life that I felt that way. Sure there are moments that I feel happy and maybe even a full day here or there that I feel good about everything. They are just not as often as I want them to be. I see other people that are happy all the time, or come off that way and I wonder what that is all about. I do think that it could be partly that I just don't feel good all the time and the headaches really bring me down but really...Also I miss my family like MAD!! It is not right that I can't see them whenever I want like I used to. I miss all the things we used to do as a family and even getting together with extended family is different and doesn't happen at all anymore... I think it's a combination.
This all came about because I was looking at pictures in my computer and on Facebook and I looked so different in certain photos. I can tell the times that I was having a rough time and the times I am not. The pictures I am with people that I love I look really happy and there are some times I just look sad but am smiling at the camera. It really very interesting. I am trying, really to be that happy version of myself again. Doing all I know is right and good.
Sigh.... Anyways..
I have 4 more classes left until I graduate with my degree and I am trying to figure out what I want to do, where I want to go... it's all so exciting and scary at the same time!!
Just a little thought for the day...
Thursday, January 3, 2013
Entry by Chelsea Diane at 8:07 PM
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Chels I LOVE you because you always are the most upbeat person when I would see you in the hallways at work. I have days I feel really low too, I think EVERYONE does and if they don;t say it...they're lying! haha! We all have our moments. You are BEAUTIFUL girl- it would be SO hard without family so hang in ther! And take LOTS of Excedrin :)
I think everyone feels this way sometimes. We all look at others and think "wow, they have it all/they have it all together/they seem so happy" when really everyone has their issues & lots of people put on fake smiles and such. Look at the pictures when you feel the happiest and think about what was going on with your life at that moment. Who were your close friends? What were you excited about then? How were things spiritually? and then try to recreate those feelings.
I know what it's like to have family far away or missing, and I wish i had some or at least ANY advice for you on how to make it better. Just know they miss you just as much as you miss them & cherish the time you have together.
And when all else fails ask for a blessing ;)
*Hugs*
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